Midnight Meditation

Not depressed, but still upset; the one who died, has never left. My best friend sits in a shelter tonight; bombs dropping down are the brightest lights. Grandma's afraid to go out in the wind; she sits at home alone with no friends. Parents together almost forty years later; how short will cancer cut down their forever? I myself sit down sad every end of December, wishing you 'Happiness!' (an emotion I can't even remember).

From Silence To Sound

Some sounds are available at: http://goberkleemusic.com/Ashira_Malka

Hungry Because I Can't

I can't eat because I can't wash the dishes because the sink won't be able to drain because the water can't go down because the drain is clogged because the pipe is blocked because the garbage disposal is broken because I dropped a small screw in there because I couldn't see what I was doing because the light bulb in the kitchen had burned out and I couldn't change it because I couldn't reach it because I don't have a stool and I can't buy one because I can't justify spending the money because I don't have a place to store it because the closet is filled with junk because I can't put it in the storage space that's right downstairs because I can't go out my front and only door without the neighbors staring at me because I don't fit in here because I just DON'T. I can't sell this place because I don't own it, and I want to move because I can't STAND it! Because.

Kneed

I NEVER felt you loved me, even before we moved to your STINKin' country! You never came to visit, never played and sat and read and waited and learned the rhythms that are in me. Now we are both adults, you say, and don't want to acknowledge to me that your eight-year seniority might make some VALID impact on me. I reach out to you; you call it hate. This is after a lifetime of waiting, hoping for what your heart cannot give -- as it has never received, or really lived. Your ribs really CAGE it. Your mind really canNOT imagine a time when, a this-that, a here-there, a there-now it's alright; we love each other although we fight, an I love you so much I'll stay up all night working this out with you before you leave because this connection is precious to me and you mean more to me than 1 chunk of sleep.